Journals & archives
Thirty years of pages, finally in one place
Scanned, transcribed, sorted, and tagged — slowly. This archive grows a little at a time, and some entries will always be marked uncertain.
How this archive is being built
We scan first, transcribe second, and date based on the recorded date or our best guess. If there is no date, it will be listed as an approximate or unknown date and grouped by the years around it. If modifications were made to maintain privacy for everyone in our lives, it will be notated. Entries that need care are marked with a content advisory, and the most sensitive material sits behind the restricted layers or stays out of the site entirely.
Search decades of pages
Our archival project includes gathering, organizing, scanning, and transcribing the following: childhood diaries, handwritten notebooks, morning pages, cluster journaling, online entries, emails and texts about therapy, automatic and trance writing, poetry, system communication, therapy records, and anything else relevant to our life and healing.
Entries listed: 14
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Open with advisoryApril 1989
The first notebook
Where the record begins: short entries about time going missing and about not being only one person.
childhood diaries · awareness · early years
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Open with advisoryApproximate / Unknown Date
The diary with the small brass lock
Undated childhood pages. We know roughly when they were written, but not closely enough to publish a date.
childhood diaries · undated · scanned
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Restricted layerNovember 1994
Notebook from treatment
Written during inpatient treatment. Held in the restricted layer because of what it describes.
handwritten · treatment · content advisory
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Open with advisoryMarch 2006
Morning pages, year one
Artist's Way daily pages. Mostly ordinary, occasionally the place where something important first surfaced.
artist's way · daily pages · transcribed
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Restricted layerApproximate / Unknown Date
Cluster journaling pages
Written by several of us in layers on the same page. Dates are uncertain and handwriting changes mid-line.
cluster journaling · many hands · undated
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Open with advisorySeptember 2004
Emails about therapy
Messages we wrote about sessions, about our system, and about what we were trying to hold on to between appointments.
online · emails · therapy
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Open with advisoryJune 2019
Text threads
Short messages that turned out to be records — the same information, told to different people, at different times.
online · texts · fragments
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Open with advisoryFebruary 2011
Online journal entries
Public and locked posts from years of online journaling, gathered back into one place.
online · journal · archive
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Restricted layerOctober 2024
Notes from the turning point
Written as we uncovered the hidden parts of our system design. Restricted, and read with support.
online · 2024 · restricted
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Open with advisoryJuly 1996
Poems
All forms, all ages. Some are the only surviving account of a particular week.
writing · poetry
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Open with advisoryJanuary 2021
Essays and articles
Longer pieces on dissociation, resilience, and what recovery actually asks of a system.
writing · essays · topics
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Restricted layerApproximate / Unknown Date
Trance and automatic writing
Pages written without front awareness. Restricted, and read only alongside our therapist.
writing · system · restricted
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Open with advisoryMay 2025
Book plans
Outlines for an autobiography, a self-help book, and children's stories for the little ones inside.
writing · plans · future
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Restricted layerFebruary 2026
Letters between us
Internal communication written insider to insider during this new phase of connection.
writing · internal communication · 2026